My Destiny

Well it’s been a hot minute since I’ve shared anything here. Not gonna lie, I’ve been wrapped up in all that has happened in life since coming back to the States. I’ve been distracted and constantly thinking about the future. I’m pretty disappointed in myself for that. The Holy Spirit humbled me greatly in Swazi and I experienced Him in ways I have never experienced before. I long for that. I cry out to Jesus to give me those moments again. And still I can’t get to that place of feeling completely at peace. I miss the mornings where it was just me and my coffee and the Word (usually with good ole’ Hannah right across from me ❤️). So this morning I snuck away from little ones and opened to Romans 12:2. Wow. I can’t tell you how often I’ve read passages like this, and it still feels like I’m getting punched in the stomach when I read it. The MSG version puts it like this: “Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead fix your attention on God.” The Western culture says to live comfortably, mind your own business, and worry about yourself. God calls us to build relationships, to experience fellowship with others in the Church, to commit ourselves to Him. Rick Warren puts it beautifully in his book “The Purpose Driven Life”, “Jesus did not die on the cross just so we could live comfortable, well-adjusted lives. His purpose is far deeper, He wants to make us like Himself before He takes us to heaven. This is our greatest privilege, our immediate responsibility, and our ultimate destiny.”

I sat in awe of how awesome God is. He knew exactly what I needed to hear right now and put it on my heart to grab my Bible and book and read just a few pages. I haven’t been living in a way that shows others that there was a man who died for me, and I am indebted to Him forever. I’ve been living the “all about me life”, the “what to put on my wedding registry” life. Haha! I’m here to become more like Jesus before He takes me to my REAL home. How can I better do that? By studying and applying God’s Word in my life, by connecting with other believers (fellowship people! You cannot become more like Jesus in isolation) and trusting Him even in the most difficult circumstances. This is my destiny.